2:28am this evening.

pandering for what?
digging for some trust.
looking in the niches and crannies for fine british nannies
who might make chopped liver
or maybe even better –
laced, pleasant, and maybe with a pheasant,
this dinner theatre extends to the reaches of the universe
to whirling, trickling bends of the cosmos.
barbarella decides when to eat, and this –
this is just piss.

a year in facebook status updates – 2009.

January

does believe people should go to the new and improved http://www.redefinemag.com

done did got her laptop infected by a virus. ~__~ BSOD FTL.

February

got a web facelift: http://www.redefinemag.com — and a new arts blog: http://www.redefinemag.com/arts/

is going to be in Los Angeles tomorrow, until the 17th! Holla!

is wondering if anyone would like to go to Peru with her in late March / early April for a couple weeks?

March

is wondering if anyone knows anyone trustworthy who needs a room to stay in for SxSW?

is going to Peru, April 1st through April 23rd. Confirmed, son.

is wondering if anyone else noticed Facebook looks different! Rounded profile pictures, omg!! Bigger fonts!!!!

thinks the Indian holiday, Holi, is AWESOME. ^__^

is pretty sure SxSW is the best shit ever.

cannot WAITTTTT to get back to Seattle where allergies are more or less tolerable and not complete complete death action.

… did I say I couldn’t wait to get back to Seattle? Well, I don’t want to be in Austin, but I don’t want to be here, either. RESPONSIBILITIES. BLACHHH.

It’s funny when you have a sudden epitome on a way to fix something that is obviously wrong, with so obvious an answer it’s ridiculous. Naw mean?

Today I hung out with a 23 year old Australian dude I met at SxSW and an 18 year old super mature and smart (and classically very good looking) British lad. I rarely ever meet and get to know English-speaking foreigners while living in the States. It’s in…

Feeleth so dehydrated…

is headed to Seattle’s Green Festival… for anyone who wants to go tomorrow, if you go to PCC and buy some shit, you get a free ticket ($15 value).

Sometimes you just need a giant 16 ounce cup of cappuccino / hot cocoa mix from — no, not the coffee shop down the street — 7/11. Hail. Yeah. Son. Sure, you’ll regret it later as you are shaking with its sugary nastiness, but the first half hour or so o…

is headed to Mexico City / Peru in one day and seven hours. Here’s to not pulling a “Tony Cordova”. Not pulling a “Tony Cordova” can be defined as, but are not limited to: 1) not breaking arms while arm wrestling, 2) not getting rings stuck on fingers til…

April

was told that her brother’s house has Oreos for consumption, but the Oreos cannot be seen!!!!

is in the Lima airport, at a Starbucks. Ohhh nooeettthh! They’re seriously everywhere. X:

is in Lima, waiting to go to Trujillo, Peru. Lima is just a city, like every other city, but man, is Peruvian cuisine colorful and exciting. But people here drive like maniacs. It’s super fun to be in a taxi, wondering if you’ll get in a crash, but even i…

is going to Huacas Del Sol Y De La Luna today… and then off to the desert. – http://es.wikipedia.org/wiki/Huacas_del_Sol_y_de_l a_Luna

is wondering about how strange it is that I’ve been here for like… three days… and it feels like an ETERNITY somehow. It’s fucking bizarre.

is thinking about how a girl on my flight from Seattle to SF five days ago finished off our 2 hour conversation with one another by telling me that I have “really nice hands” and that she has an “obsession with hands and necks.”

has photos online at http://picasaweb.google.com/veez0ri

helped another teacher teach some 2nd graders English today. We did one class in Spanish and one class in English, teaching kids things like, “What’s your name?” and “What’s her name?” and the class taught exclusively in English did MUCH better than the c…

$569 roundtrip to Iceland from Seattle this summer. Who wants to go

es muy confundido.

is PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY. K thx. Off to the mountains of Peru this evening for Semana Santa!!! Holy Week!

is just a girl.

has new photos from an awesome weekend in Cajamarca, Peru: http://picasaweb.google.com/veez0ri/042009Cajamarc aPeru#

has just been reminded that holy shit… art is better than pretty much everything. – http://www.redefinemag.com/arts/ – http://1988watcher.blogspot.com/

is wondering who wants to go to Burning Man this year… like, for real. This time.

& Mihae received many a love letter this evening from Peruvian men. Here is a note a hot 17 year old Peruvian waiter wrote us before we left: “Cuando vas muy lejos adonde yo no te puedo ver se que vata (?) o extranarte mucho Vivian te extrano mucho quisie…

is forever in love with “Gorecki” by Lamb. One of the most awesome songs ever.

feels like she just smoked at least five cigarettes due to the plethora of secondhand smoke this evening ~__~

doesn’t like secondhand smoke but residual smoke-in-hair is SO GOOD. So good.

is sad to be leaving Trujillo cause the kids are SO cute. ~__~ Want to come back for longer. How to do so logistically…

is Lima-bound tonight. Hello overnight bus.

says: If you’re riding a bus in Peru, reserve the freaking 1st row of seats on the 2nd floor of the bus. AMAZING view (And “Bruce Almighty” in Spanish is amazing, too.)

is in Cusco, and NOT altitude sick! Yay. Mihae is yet to be determined, however.

Cusco / Cuzco is uncharming, expensive, drab, unexciting, and completely un-Peru-like. Machu Picchu may be great, but this tourist trap mecca definitely is not. Just saying.

is tired after a day of hiking up a 3,500 meter (11,500 feet) above sea level mountain because two Peruvian waiters (we sure like making friends with waiters) told us to. Tiring and hard, with some parts of the “trail” actually being giant ladders we had…

is thinking, WTF, BBQ, LIFE, and using the internet while sitting on the floor of our hostel in Cuzco.

actually heard a stranger fart last night in an alleyway and then SMELLED it. That’s SO wrong.

got a tarot card reading today from a Peruvian jungle man nicknamed Captain Jack, while sitting on a giant rock and stuff.

is in the Lima airport… again. Living in Trujillo was SO cheap, but coming to Cusco and Lima is SO expensive!! BAHH! Sapping money like a motherfucker!!

is leaving Peru tomorrow. Already? Is it over already?! :[

is back in the States after a night of 0 sleep and techno music in Mexico City. Thanks, Franco.

is dying of stomach ache! WTF!

is feeling better. Yay for no Mexican flu

is wondering why people would install shit on my computer. Kinda annoying.

wants it all -- brand new socks and drawls -- and I'm ballin every time I stop and talk to y'all. I want it all, all, all, all.

lied a little. Stomach still hurts. :X And it is not reassuring that one of the people I was hanging out with in Mexico City also has had a stomach ache!!! (But I don't have any other flu symptoms, so I'm not going to die, right?!! RIGHT?!!)

can once again think of a zillion reasons to never live at home.

is wondering if anyone wants to pick her up from the airport at 11:00pm on Tuesday. No? OK.

is going to interview Crystal Antlers tonight at the Crepe Place in Santa Cruz. Bands? At a Crepe Place? We'll see how this goes.

is wondering WHYYYYYY WHYYYY STOMACHE WHYYYYY!

is pretty convinced what burned my stomach was drinking a glass of absinthe (when I never drink) on an empty stomach. Finally took medicine, and now it's all peachy.

is thinking four days or so is about the maximum amount of time to visit the parentals in California without going batshit crazy.

is wondering if anyone is going to Sasquatch, cause I'd actually maybe like to go for once, perhaps.

May

is thinking that looking at high school people's Facebook profiles is some Twilight Zone shit.

wants Red Lobster Cheddar Biscuits. SRSLY.

is having her patience tested, z0mg.

reckons there's always a lesson to be learned in experiences that test you, but man, it's hard to glean something super positive from someone's annoying the shit out of you.

is gonna see some dags. Do you like dags?

revolutionized nail-cutting this afternoon. Cut your nails outside; never worry about mess again!!!!!!!!! ZOMG!!!!

gives in to Conor Oberst. I had always written off Bright Eyes as mediocre, but dammit, it's kind of good.

is wondering if anyone wants to go with her to either The Kills / The Horrors' show or The Curious Mystery / Ole Time Relijun's show. Both on Friday and free. Hollar.

is going country line dancing or something tonight. They call it 2-steppin? What? We'll see.

is HOLY FUCK, round-trip tickets from Seattle to NYC for $219 and from Los Angeles to Australia for $646. HOLY FUCK ASS!!!!!

just fell in the mud with my Nikon d40 D-SLR. But dude, smoothing concrete is fun (and the camera is okay).

is now officially only one degree of separation removed from Mike Patton (of Faith No More / Mr. Bungle fame). Wee!

is going to Hammingbell, aka Bellingham, for the day...!

recommends that you go watch The Kills and The Horrors, on tour now. They killed it this evening.

needs to need to not want to need.

loves the VH1 show "Daisy of Love." I'm just a lameass.

sometimes wishes she liked alcohol even a little bit. But alas, no.

is an idiot around boys I have even remote interest in, and I will run away prematurely. But hey, if I don't like you, I will talk to you for fucking hours.

... sometimes you think you know, but then find out what you know ain't shit. But it's nice when that can be said in a positive manner. SON!

spent the night at a bar with a fucking banana in my purse. SON!

eats a little too much hummuses!!!

necesita aprender mas espanol :0

was late for the bus but forgot bus money, had to run back home to grab the bus money, grabbed the bus money, kept it in her hands while running down the hill, lost a quarter of the fare in someone's unkempt lawn (where it was never to be seen again), and...

was called by her mother today, and her mother said to her in Chinese: "Your house is actually pretty clean now! But you live with boys, so make sure you wrap up your pads well when you throw them out while you're on your period." To which I replied (verb...

thinks the problem of being a sucker for pretty writing and pretty words is that, more often than not, that's all it is... pretty words... not pretty actions.

thinks may all die a nuclear death... in 2012.

just interviewed Mike Weiss of mewithoutYou. They have a new disc out: http://www.myspace.com/mewithoutyou

has been trying to install a Ruby on Rails environment on the computer all day. ALL DAY. Lord.

is being FUCKED OVER by Google. Motherfuckers. The Redefine website is inaccessible via Firefox without a warning of "vulnerability", and I fixed the errors, but they're still not removing this warning. PISSED!!

June

is up late, being emo. ~o~

: incentive for waking up earlier... $290 round-trip tickets from Seattle to Madrid, including taxes. *WTF*. Too bad I slept in and it got sold out. :L

is going camping in the Olympic Peninsula until Tuesday. Suckaz!!!

... just saw *the* most amazing dance-off ever at Trinity, by a pair of strangers, to dub-step. INSANE. They were *literally* climbing on the wall, crawling on the floor, and doing the fucking splits. In fact, the chick did the fucking splits on the wall,...

had an awesome weekend playing Rock Band, white trash golf? (testicle toss?), eating yummy catered food, and seeing ScM friends from looong ago. Congrats Pwny & Renae, and thanks! Even the sanest of girls is crazy.

is going to Ashland, Oregon for July 4th to watch Macbeth at the world's most awesomest Shakespeare Festival. Hail yessssss, dawwwwwgggg.

totally kind of believes in astrology crap. Do you?

July

was volunteering at Real Change today and Rosette made a joke about my going to bed at 4AM last night because I was watching Michael Jackson videos. That was untrue. Today, however, I am actually staying up til 4AM watching Michael Jackson videos. ~__~ Li...

thinks it's hilarious that *NOW* the FDA says Tylenol (and Percoset and Vicodin) is bad. - http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/31671172#3 1671172

inhaled too much nail polish, omg... headache galore.

still can't get over the fact that my parents have Facebook. Can they read this?!!! I have no idea!!!

just had a car trunk closed on her head and it hurt like a motherb!tch. If a giant bruise emerges on my face, I'm going to have to pin domestic violence on some lucky person!!!!

battled four nosebleeds today and won. Then again, if they keep coming back, does that still count as victories? Are they all the same nosebleed coming back to life again or are they four separate nosebleeds?!! HMMM?!!!!!?!!!! And if they're separate nose...

+ sports bra = boy... pretty much.

wonders if you would ever read a magazine in downloadable PDF form???? Check yes or no.

is disturbed by how different raisins in the same pack taste from one another Some are so nasty and mushy I have to spit them out!!

hates going through all the CDs we get for Redefine and really realizing how many bands we simply don't have the resources to give the time of day to. :{

spent the last four hours sorting through CDs. Got a couple discs in the mail that seem fairly exciting for me personally: Volcano Choir (JagJaguwar), OKie Dokie (Aagoo), Forks And Knives (Self-Released) and INF (Beats Broke)... WOOHOO!!!!!

is putzing around Portland for the day... what to do, what to do, other than talking to random crazy awesome strangers...

pretty much loves Portland. Seattle's still more beautiful, though. But Portland's more fun.

told Kyle that my house is really super empty because Chris moved out all his furniture. Kyle told me to try doing cartwheels now that I have space. I've been trying to do them... and I'm not going to give up til I actually do a legit one... but what's pa...

It's a bitch convincing people to like you/ If I stop now call me a quitter/ If lies were cats you'd be a litter/ Pleasing everyone isn't like you/ Dancing jigs until I'm crippled/ Slug ten drinks I won't get pickled!.../ Oh I could throw you in the lake/

fucking loves cherries! WHY OH WHY MUST I BE ALLERGIC! WHY!!!

is going to sleep at 4:30am and waking up at 9:00am. WOOOOO!

thinks is unfair that Block Party is this weekend in Seattle (still haven't been!) for a zillion dollars and PDX Pop Now is a free event this weekend. Pish, posh, poosh.

thinks it's kinda sorta fun to live without: a microwave, a television, a bed frame... a clue. Just me, music, hardwood floors, dreams, and a zillion dust bunnies are ADEQUATE!

had a freaking amazing day doing the "Talk To Us" thing in downtown Seattle (imagine Christian women's conference meets Narcotics Anonymous crowd meets Torchlight Parade participants), choosing from 60 FREE CAKES in Seattle Center, high-fiving marathon ru...

... when all the furniture goes away, all the spiders come out to play :/ including the hobos the size of your palm. WOO! This is when sleeping on the floor not so good.

... [stolen from someone else cause social experiments rule.] This is a Facebook Experiment. If you are reading this, even if we don’t speak often, post a comment with a memory of you and I. When you’ve finished, post this paragraph into your own status u…

HOW IS IT 105 DEGREES IN SEATTLE? THIS IS NOT RIGHT.

… damn you, bleeding from the nether regions! I wanted to go swimming!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wonders if anyone knows of good electro/disco-type bands in the Portland and Seattle area??

August

had a memorable dream for the first time in a long time… kid ghosts, kid ghosts, kid ghosts… so plentiful in number they were flying and practically overlapping with each other in my vision. plus feelings of being insane.

enjoys the sleeping positions of the two cats I’m cat/house-sitting… teehehehe! Their names are George and Bert (because of resemblance to a Muppet)… but strangely, they’re both female. (Crazy cat lady in the making?!!…)

is going to hit up the $7-haircut-run-out-of-a-house place I’ve been wanting to try for almost a year now! Wish me lux.

“Your skin is something that I stir into my tea/ And I am watching you/ And you are starry, starry, starry…”

… me: going to tillamook today, never been / rachel: huh / me: what could possibly be confusing about that statement lol! / rachel: cheese / me: yes / rachel: holy shit, didnt know that was possible

is loving the new Portugal. The Man disc, The Satanic Satanist. More falsetto + blues/funk? Sweeeet. – Free MP3 here (not the best song on the disc, though, but whatever): http://freedownloads.last.fm/download/278763095/Pe ople%2BSay.mp3

… “Lovers loving love just like these lovers are loving in love.” – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pv3z8m1qbOQ

had a fantastical evening with Miss XL consisting of (but not limited to): getting lost in a maze of freeways, taking the LONGEST freeway detour EVER, being hit on by a guy using the classic, “Are you hot wearing that jacket? I mean, you’re HOT, but are you hot?” line, and laughing our asses off when a whole crowd of ridiculous clubbers got, “Low low low low,” in unison because “Apple Bottom Jeans” told them to.

is so very jaded by traditional Christian weddings… receptions rule, though. Fo’ realz.

is officially REALLY bad at frisbee golf. Really good at living off of snack foods, though.

… “A horse is a horse, of course, of course, and no one can talk to a horse, of course, that is, of course, unless the horse is the famous Mister Ed.”

should give lessons on being a nomad. August / September / first half of October = PDX -> SEA -> PDX -> SEA -> LA -> NEVADA -> SO-CAL -> PDX -> SEA -> SF -> ????. All rent free. Jea.

… new nomad schedule for Aug-Oct 2009: Portland > Seattle > Los Angeles > Black Rock City, Nevada > Long Beach > Austin > Orlando > Seattle > Portland (MusicFestNW) > Chicago (La Dispute!!) > Detroit (:D) > Chicago > New Orleans (:D) > Pittsburgh > Seattle > San Francisco (Fever Ray/Castro St. Parade!) > New York > New Jersey > New York > Montreal > New York > Seattle…! (Settling down in Nov? Mayhaps. TIPS??)

… despite making films that would lead one to believe the contrary, David Lynch IS in fact Captain Obvious. Gems include, “And I thought to myself that in California, people wear sweaters! So it must sometimes be cool at night or something, because it was kind of a night-time thing, I imagined. And I thought, ‘What a great climate, that it’s warm in the day, and cool in the night — cool enough to wear a sweater!”

… 1) does anyone know if you need to take a GRE to get a Master’s in Social Work?… 2) does anyone know why I keep freaking getting Charlie Horses in my sleep? CHARLIE HORSES *SUCK*!!!

… emo emo emo mo mom oomaoo.

is gonna interview Theo Ellsworth in a hot sec. Awesome. – http://theoellsworth.blogspot.com

presents… a cross-section of Dutch words cuz Dutch is awesome/impossible … afschuwelijk = horrible, beschonken = drunk, droogtrommel = tumble drier, eigenaardig = peculiar, hulpvaardig = helpful, loopjongen = errand boy, natuurwetenschappelijk = natural phenomenon, ooghaar = eyelash, prijzenswaardig = commendable, raaskallen = talk nonsense, schurkenstreek = roguery, verachtelijk = despicable, zaniken = bother

… all of this past month’s Redefine updates in one handy ol’ August 2009 newsletter: http://www.redefinemag.com/newsletters/2009-08-new s.html (you can sign up for future similar updates in the right-hand column of http://www.redefinemag.com)!… … duude. Redefine life is doing good. It is, it is. A horse is a horse, of course, of course.

is pretty godamn satisfied. Bitches. And you need to listen to Leftover Cuties. – http://www.myspace.com/leftovercuties

… I know I just had a conversation recently about how band/musician names really shouldn’t play a role in determining how good he/she/they are, but man, Mac McAnally’s name is pretty funny.

is wondering if anyone in the Seattle / Portland / Los Angeles areas have crazy, super HOT desert weather clothes that they don’t need anymore that they want to give me to wear / demolish / never return (?)

wonders how many of the neighbors can hear me singing my ass off through the open windows. Hahahahahahahahaa.

wonders where I should go from Austin… Boston, Raleigh, Charlotte, Portland (Maine), Fort Lauderdale, Orlando…?? Decisions, decisions. VOTES?

is wondering if anyone in LA has a shitty bike he/she wants to sell/lend me? EH?????

has too much to do and therefore wants to do *nothing*…

… dude, coffee-drinking today has been CRAZY and has kind of sent me into this world where if I sit still for a hot sec I’m reeling into the unknown folds of the universe. Seriously.

is friggin pissed. Got a virus trying to download Simon & Garfunkel’s Greatest Hits. Virus rendered Internet unusable. Now, while trying to clear space on my hard drive to back up data, guess what I find? Simon & Garfunkel’s Greatest Hits. Godammit.

is watching a documentary on noise music called “People Who Make Noise”, and the cats are definitely freaking out in parts.

hates iTunes. I formatted my iPod Touch when my iTunes was set on shuffle and now my songs will only play on shuffle. Anyone know how to fix short of reformatting again?

September

is back in the real world (as real as Los Angeles is, anyway). Hello dry skin and straw hair.

is Austin and San Antonio-bound tomorrow, September 10th, through Monday, September 14th. Holla, Texans! And recommendations, por favor!!!!!

… funny press release of the day: “Name Your Tune is an exciting new children’s music compilation that is made-to-order and personalized for each child. Children will hear their name more than 80 times throughout 14 much-loved songs, such as If You’re Happy And You Know It (becomes If You’re Paul And You Know It) and Old MacDonald Had A Farm (becomes Little Ringo Had A Farm.)”

… guy’s name at the Long Beach Airport (the weirdest airport I’ve ever been to, BTW): Rohan McGee. AWESOME!!!

… one of my new favorite names for a city: Gay Hill, Texas!

equals not impressed by TexMex. TexMex is kinda sick. I’ll take Mex over TexMex every day of the week.

… dude, there’s a PLEASANTON in Texas!!!!!!!!!!!! 30 miles or so from San Antonio!!!!

passed a 5-mile stretch of highway in Houston today in which like, every American chain store had a branch. It was both amazing and disgusting! I’d begun to think that for sure every chain store had already shown up, but new ones kept popping up! Bed Bath And Beyond was like, “Don’t forget about me!”, Kohl’s was like, “I wanna play, too!”, and Panda Express was like, “Eat me!”

… three-hour-long+ adventure on Los Angeles Metro, here I come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

… actual synopsis for the film “Hood Of Horror”: “The Ghetto can be a scary place. And thanks to Snoop Dogg, it’s about to get even scarier. Snoop brings us three tales of terror from the hood featuring Billy Dee Williams, Method Man, and Jason Alexander. They’ll scare the shizzle out of you.”

loooooves eavesdropping on non-English-speaking humans (that I can understand, obviously)… cause sometimes you get real gems cause people think no one around can understand them!

… funny press release of the day: “Megan Fox is hot. She’s everywhere. And those short shorts and tank top and the black leather motorcycle costume she wore in Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen are available for all to buy.”

… awesome press quote I just saw on some taxi in Chicago about some theatre show: “Like Cirque du Soleil, but with horses.” — WTF!

… two assholes, at two shows, two days in a row. One racist in Detroit who said the Asian Yale girl who got murdered and stuffed in the wall begged her murderer, “Please no keel me; I sucky sucky for free,” (seriously??) and another dumbass who told Micachu And The Shapes that their music wasn’t music and that he “didn’t pay to have my ears pissed in.” Why so angry, Chicagoans and Detroiters?!!

self-loathes with a vengeance this evening, and to top it off, my electronics keep committing suicide, too. UGH.

… yet another low: MySpace Music is now brought to you by McDonald’s. WTF?

was thinking it was too early to sleep because my computer clock says 11:45pm, Pacific Time. Realization: I’m on the east coast. Dammit.

… MOTHAFUCKIN THESE ARMS ARE SNAKES IN DC, BEEYOTCH!

is so frustrated with myself!!! The airport security workers were totally being a dick to this Spanish-speaking lady and I wanted to stand in and translate, but I kept asking the security worker what she needed to do and he kept ignoring me, so I just stood down. It was so sad! They just wheeled her off in her little wheelchair and she was like, “No comprendo!” and had no idea what was going on :{

October

… Sondre Lerche twittering about Redefine? Awesome!

thinks it’s funny when people (*ahem, Sherry*) get all worked up over sports on TV.

… TONIGHT: Fever Ray in SF!!!! YAYYYYYY!!!

… who wants to make me a cupcake costume for Halloweenie!?

… anyone have experience with podcasting and can chat with me about it?

… funny press release of the day: “Dell [has] partnered with Major League Baseball to offer fans across the nation opportunities to bring their team spirit to their PC. Dell Design Studio offers designs for all 30 MLB teams in three customized levels – Fan, Classic and Die-Hard.”

is gonna be in New York City until the 13th, Montreal until the 17th or 18th, New Jersey until the 24th. Let’s meet up!?

is pissed! Of all the freaking delicious places to eat in NY I somehow settled on a place with THE WORST godamn eggplant parmesan sandwiches ever!! How could an eggplant parmesan sandwich possibly be this disgusting? AND it’s expensive. I’m craving one from Romio’s now. Ugh.

wishes bugs didn’t like biting me so much!! AAHHHHHHH. Three bug bites on the face… mostly no big deal, except for the one around my eye that makes me look like I got punched in the face

wants to eat something warm and hot, but I don’t have any Canadian money left except for $1.11, and I’m leaving tomorrow! I can’t even buy something from McDonald’s here with that! Much less the poutine next door.

being in the Northeast during the fall might be one of the best things ever… so beautiful, aaaah.

… my 16-year-old cousin doesn’t have ANY idea what Schindler’s List is. That’s almost as scary as Lingo’s nephew {?} not knowing who Michael Jordan is. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Social networking does a REDEFINE body good.

… explaining non-meat-eating to 85-year-old Chinese grandpa = impossible. Meat sickness impending. Not to mention they were pork buns, which I hated even when I did eat meat regularly!! ~__x

… wowowow Spaceland venue in Los Angeles!!! Taking word-for-word my article on Nurses for use in their promotional mailer: “By blending everything together in a way that turns layers of instrumentation, samples, and loops into structured tracks, Nurses create underlying backgrounds which teem with life and create a visual musical experience.” FUCKFACES. Where’s the credit!?

is geeking out on music so hard. Amusing finds for the evening: Terrible Records – Ghosts (http://terriblerecordsus.com/blog/wp-content/uplo ads/2009/10/ghosts.mp3), Yura Yura Teikoku – Dekinai (http://girlieaction.com/yurayura/sounds/Dekinai.mp3), Pylon – Beep (http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=down load&ufid=C646D21D51E64387), and finally… this really rad Nesey Gallons album, Eyes & Eyes & Eyes Ago! Yay!

is thinking, in this day and age where music videos are better than ever, why don’t VH1/MTV actually show music videos???????? Certainly they would hold someone’s attention…

just turned in my absentee ballot today, and I actually looked up all the candidates, but I feel like they’re all just about the goshdarn same. They all care about the environment and safety… blahblahblah. So I just went with whatever person seemed like he/she liked public transportation and homeless people the most. Ha!

November

… The Norwegian word “Røyksopp” means puffball fungus (lit. “(a) smoke mushroom”)… now you know!!!!!!!

… ever get those moments where you’re so insanely idiotic that you can scarcely believe yourself? They’re kind of special.

… funny press release of the day: “The Beatles cover [of] “I’m Only Sleeping” was recorded the day “The Beatles: Rock Band” game was released in protest of the idea of great musicians wasting time playing games about making music instead of actually making music.” – AEONs

… “I did not stir, and presently I began to breathe with the dispassionate rhythm of sleep. He listened, that was certain. I listened to his listening. He listened to my listening to his listening. Something snapped. I noticed that I was not thinking at all of what I thought I was thinking; attempted to catch my consciousness tripping, but got mazed myself. ” – Vladimir Nabokov, Despair. <3 <3 <3

… s o m e t i m e s l i f e i s r e a l l y r e a l l y a w e s o m e a n d i t f e e l s a m a z i n g . i feel like i'm onto something.

… loudly listening to music on Mihae Jung's $700 speakers = kinda better than going outside.

… so glad I don't work for a corporation… some corporate politics are truly ridiculous.

… "And we were laughing at the stars while our feet clung tight to the ground. So pleased with ourselves for using so many verbs and nouns. But we were all still just dumb, dumb, dumber than the dirt, dirt, dirt on the ground."

… "My grandfather used to say: 'Life is astonishingly short. When I look back now it is all so condensed in my memory that I can hardly understand, for example, how a young man can decide to ride over to the next village, without his being afraid — quite apart from unfortunate accidents — that the whole span of a normal happy life is far from being adequate for such a ride.'" – Franz Kafka (The Next Village)

… three hours in Korea, and already I've been kidnapped and forced to drink beer and chat in broken Korean with two older Korean men (with the pimply-faced one stroking my back / laughing creepily and the other one — although hilarious and drunk as hell — calling me his wife and saying that Xinlei and I would be his friends forever); thank JEEBUS for being rescued by Xtra Large. <3 <3 <3

… mmmm, dreams about Joseph Gordon-Levitt…!!

… day two in Korea consistethed of going to seven different convenience stores to acquire seven types of banana milk and then taste-testing them one after the other. You'd be surprised at the array of flavors. The one with Bart Simpson sucking on a banana and having crazy eyes that looked like spirals was the winner.

… Portland's YACHT (http://www.myspace.com/yacht) and White Rainbow (http://www.myspace.com/whiterainbowwhiterainbow) are in Korea = free comped tickets for Friday night's show ($30 each!). Dunno if I actually like them, but it's not just a concert; it's a concert plus a DJ set by YACHT which goes until 5:00am. UMMMMMMMMMMM, AMAZING? 350 people confirmed on Facebook so far. S T O K E D!

… YACHT = awesome live show.

… I think I've done it. I think I've made myself sick of banana milk. THIS CAN'T BE!!!!!!???

… 2012 = worst movie ever……………… two hours of sheer and utter pain.

got rescued by the cops today. They pushed my car to the Honda dealership. Two of them plus one civilian. Hell yeah.

December

… cars are a pain in the snarse.

… breakfast! It’s what’s for dinner!

… the problem with always making faces or doing weird shit while taking photos is that when you actually need a professional-ish photo for business purposes, there are zero. Zilch. None. Nada. The closest to a passable photo might even be one you took with a Macaw bird on your shoulder. BLARGH!

= dry cereal addict. NOM NOM NOM. (so much better than wet cereal.)

… what’s an awesome name you think needs to be used more often? My vote: WYATT.

… Iceland/Europe in spring, anyone? Round-trip airfare from Seattle for $474…………. including taxes…….?

can’t sleep worth shiet.

is doing a post on Album Covers Of The Year!! Have any favorites from this year?? Anything blow you away?? Share

gets to eat lunch at Google today, heck yeah!!!!!!!! Free fooood come to meeeeeee!

… dude, remember Tomodachis?? And Furbys? Scary the random things you remember…….!

… REGIFTING RULE #1: Remove that sweetly-worded card that’s addressed to you. (Saving mother from embarrassment since 1983.)

… dude, did all of my tape singles get thrown out?!!!!! THERE WERE LIKE A HUNDRED OF THEM!!! Goodbye, childhood memories! You left without saying goodbye!

… 46 rad album covers from 2009! This is the most fun I’ve had writing an article in a while. Enjoy! (PS, Duran Duran is awesommmmmme.) – http://www.redefinemag.com/music/reviews_cover_2.php?artist=46-Fantastic-Album-Covers-From-2009,-Part-One&id=1379

fun night.

i’m listening to… the best of duran duran, motherfucker!

random crap today. posted up redefine’s 46 fantastic album covers from 2009 article today, and now i’m wondering, is 46 too many? well, whatever.

either way.

after posting up that article i tried to go to the sprint store to buy a fucking lg phone car charger but sprint didn’t have any! at least not sprint in pleasanton! what the shit! that’s messed!

so i headed over to san francisco, sparingly using my telephone so i’d still have battery life by the time i got there. met up with fontaine and allen. we went to watch the new “sherlock holmes” movie! i thought it was pretty good. at some points i was like, bah, this is too long, but for the most part it was good, and there were some fucking hilarious laugh-out-loud moments, but totally in a really ummmmm smart (british!) way. i swear, brits are better than us. i’ve said it many times. i’ll say it again!

anyway.

after that, we went to japantown to eat at on the bridge. it was pretty good… really had my eyes set on some gratin but they were all sold out of it, so i got some wicked delicious-looking pesto udon! so good! kinda salty, though.

after that, i headed over to kevin‘s house and we went out to north beach for his friend’s birthday pub crawl thing. it was fun. met a lot of really nice people and had some interesting convos for sure. some talk about dildos and jokes about calling them devastators. haha? and some talk about random people’s occupations… lot of interesting occupations in there… and religion, because one guy had a buncha religious tracts that were super funny, with one of them featuring one guy saying to another guy, “you’re no longer a LOSER! you’re a WINNER!” after he had found god… and evidently everyone there was pretty much a godless heathen. oh, and there was a filmmaker at the table next to us being awkwardly (kinda) interviewed… and what else. crap. oh. tried curry fries?? interesting. apparently it’s a popular irish thing.

fun stuff… the birthday boy told a story about when he thought he killed someone. when he was 21 and temporarily going to school in olympia, washington, hanging out with two roommates for new year’s eve, each with an entire fifth of bourbon in their hands, some random guy came into their house holding a giant bag of shrooms… and that at that point in time he really was into fighting people and the guy who had the shrooms (after they’d all eaten a bunch “like potato chips”) started quoting “fight club”. hence, birthday boy’s like, “let’s fight!” and the shrooms guy was into it, so they fought… and birthday boy was super jazzed about it and kept trying to get his roommates into it but they weren’t having it cause they were trippin so he’d try and punch them in the face to show them that it was fun, and they jumped out the first floor window and left hahaha. then two hours later the roommates came back and the two others were still fighting, so they left again (and proceeded to drive around at 90mph, when one of the guys was like, “this is just like being in malaysia!” and they were driving on the wrong side of the road). when the roommates came back, apparently shrooms guy was on the floor with half his face bloody and was unconscious… and birthday boy had been running around the house with his hands up in the air cheering and basically deeming himself “the man”… and the roommates were like, “dude, we think you killed him,” and the birthday boy’s celebration turned to bummed outness. naturally. at this point in the story, some new guests came in and he never finished his story, but i guess at some point they realized that he wasn’t dead? the end? maybe?

anyway other stories about a guy having to escape ukraine because his family was rich and chased after by the mob. more stories about the guy going to cougar bars and being told by a cougar who was there (and good-looking, apparently, thanks to plastic surgery) something along the lines of, “do you see this face? this face is worth thousands of dollars.” hahahaha. awesome.

funny story of my own… as i was gettin ready to leave the second place we went to, which was a place called the bubble lounge (think i’ve been there before, strangely, but i don’t know for sure… the basement with its brick-tiled walls just seemed REALLY familiar), i went to the bathroom and had washed my hands. i don’t usually dry my hands, so i was running back up the stairs to leave and this convo took place.

CONVO WITH RANDOM, PRETTY MUCH GUIDO-LOOKING DUDE:
dude: whoa! who are you?
me: vivian.
dude: i’m ruess. (extends hand)
me: (extends both hands, for some reason) sorry, my hands are kind of wet.
dude: we’ve only just met and you’re already wet?
me: that’s horrible.
dude: i know, right? (totally proud of himself, it was obvious)

(followed by other lame dialogue of him trying to convince me to stay and go to the bar with him even though i said i didn’t drink, and he said, “me neither! i just am going to get some water!” which i think was a filthy ass lie.)

going out in sf is fun. good times!

(only bad part is that this is the ONE night i coulda stayed out til whenever cause my parents didn’t come home tonight!!!! unfortunate, because i came back at 2:30. oh well. the last stop was at a club anyway and i can’t say i really cared all that much to be there.)

man, family dinner conversations…

man, family dinner conversations with my whole family around are always so horrible. they always like 100% descend into talking about money. bores me out of my fooking miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiind. and what’s more… holidays at the hua household just suck. they’re get-togethers, sure, like everywhere else, but it doesn’t feel special at all… it’s just a social gathering like anywhere else with anyone else. gahhhhh. it’s horrible, and it makes me jaded, too………………………………………………. blech!!! you know, i always thought myself pretty well-adjusted, but when i come home i turn into this bitter horrible person and then i think, fuck, i’ve really got some issues in the family realm… bitterness, if you will!!!! BLECH!!! horrible!!!

late night art musings.

who was up until nearly 8:00am last night? me.

i tried to go to bed at 2:30pm but my mind had like a million ideas for artistic projects i wanted to do, so i said, fuck it, and embraced the horrible horrible desire. woke up at 5:40pm and didn’t go to bed til two hours later. this is the result.

“after a successful round of investments, stanley made himself enough money to finally get his own real life snow man.”

moar to come.

schvetybawlz.

i’m listening to… brand new’s daisy album.

3:45am
an act of creation to create
to do with what?
my brain.
tumbling out and jumbling up
porous rocks and all that crux
crusted up but it’s practice time
for garbage garbage garbage
to take out
to set on fire!
to expound.
why not.

jamaican haitian word association
over liver livered over cathartic crunk
drimbling drunk and a little bit of grump
packing in and backing up
cream cheese bagels and all that stuff
cause it’s not so much the notion as it is the act
active memory without backtrack
forming cohesive thoughts nah
gotta let go of that
back to springle sprangle jingle jangle
fresh laundry detergent preamble
crispy duck skin mallet
ballet wench driving home a ballot!!!!!

actually the music was giving me occasional words which made it hard for the mind to really go free enough to write down my associations. i kind of like the idea of this, though. more brain exercise poems in the future.

oh, bullocks.

listening to… stars’ set yourself on fire album.

oh bullocks. need more time to do art. need more time!! time!! TIMEEEEEEEE. and this is considering i’m a really fast worker in most things in life. how does anyone else get anything done?!!!! seriously?!!!! AAAAH. need to do things to make money to do things i like to do things i like always. le sigh.

disney fairytales in my brain and such.

quotes from danae dobson’s “let’s talk!”

so i’m totally gifting this book to someone for christmas jokesters, but not before i skim it and glean some valuable insight from it… the book is by danae dobson and is entitled: let’s talk! good stuff for girlfriends about god, guys, and growing up. gold.

… ON GOD BEING “COOL”:
“My brother, Ryan, and I use the word cool to describe everything from cars to movies. It’s a reliable way to reveal how much we like something. If I say something is cool, that means it’s extraordinary — at the top of my A-list.
 
“Well, you know what? God is cool! (2, footnote: “God Is Cool!” is based on an article by Jerry Vallotton in The Clause, April 1984. Used with permission.) In fact, he’s so cool that there aren’t enough words to describe him!”

i’m just wondering why a phrase as simple as that had to be used with permission? is that shit trademarked or something? if so, that’s just WRONG.

… ON DATING GUYS FROM CHURCH
“Suppose you’re attracted to a guy at church. He’s funny, intelligent, and totally gorgeous. You smile and flirt a little when you’re around him, just to let him know you’re interested. He reciprocates, and before long your wish has come true — HE ASKS YOU OUT ON A DATE!…

“… Some of you may think dating is a bad idea, and there’s certainly a valid argument for that point of view (see “Waiting for Dating?” on page 123). But whether you are already hitting the scene or just wondering what to look for in a future husband, it would be a good idea to think through some of the basics.

“First, keep in mind that you should not even consider going out with non-Christian guys. Period! There’s too much at stake to take a chance on an unbeliever, so I recommend that you not “go there.”…

“… Sometimes a red flag will pop up when you first meet someone. I’m reminded of what Jesus said in Matthew 7:20: ‘By their fruit you will recognize them.’ I often think of this verse when it comes to the opposite sex. I can usually get a hint of where a guy is spiritually within the first five minutes of conversation. Can you? If you’re uncertain, just watch for the clues. If he brags on himself, talks about money too much, or mentions a wild party he just attended, then move on. There could be a rotten piece of fruit on that tree!”

 

… ON SEXY FUN TIME
“Why does God tell single people to abstain from sex? Let’s analyze this for a moment. His commands in the Bible are for our benefit — and they are designed to keep us from creating disastrous situations for ourselves. Consider this: if I decide to jump off a one-thousand-foot cliff, I will die when my body hits the ground. That’s a fact. Gravity was designed by God, but not for the purpose of punishing me for my folly. His physical laws govern the universe, and those who defy them are destined to suffer the consequences. So it is with God’s moral laws. They, too, are as real and predictable as the principles that govern the world around us.” (SERIOUSLY?? HAHAHAHHA)
 
“True story #1: Kyle wanted to do things his own way. He went through several relationships and slept with each of his girlfriends. His frivolous lifestyle was fun and exciting — while it lasted. Kyle currently lives in a state of regret over a baby that he fathered and is struggling with child-support payments. Despite Kyle’s misery, the baby will be the one who suffers the most for Kyle’s mistakes…
 
“True story #3: Kimberlin dated Matt for two years before agreeing to have sex with him. She knew it was wrong, but her decision was easy to rationalize. After all, she and Matt were in love — they would soon be engaged. You can imagine her shock when Matt broke up with her for someone else. Kimberly is now recovering from a broken heart that took a long time to mend. She admits that the pain wouldn’t have been so severe if she hadn’t slept with her boyfriend. Now Kimberlin knows that she gave away something precious that she should have saved for her husband.
 
“True story #4: After a party one night, Gina succumbed to having sex with a male friend — just a brief, casual encounter, for the sake of a little fun. Where is Gina now? Currently married, with herpes simplex disease. It is incurable and will plague her for the rest of her life.”

i don’t really believe these stories for a sec. someone out there must exist with these stories, but i doubt the author knows these someones.

oh, religion, i find you so funny.

honesty.

dude, i can’t sleep. fuck.

i don’t think honesty has ever really freaked me out. does it freak people out? i can’t tell. i’m pretty blunt and honest about most things, and don’t sugarcoat much, and i wonder sometimes if some info that i find interesting to share should just be kept to myself because other people find it to be abnormal to share or something. nooooo idea. people are weird. life is weird. what the heck. i feel like my viewpoint on people’s acceptance and tolerance levels are way unrealistic. people can say pretty much whatever they want to me, and i don’t really usually give a fuck (unless it’s bigotry-related or hatred-related)…

perhaps that also applies to my expectations of people. for instance, if people write me personal emails, i always write back (if they warrant responses, anyway). sometimes it might take a bit longer than other times, but it happens. not so the case with all humans, and i’m beginning to think that my expectations that humans will do this is not realistic. to be honest, i’m kind of uber confused about life at the moment…………………. it’s not a pressing, constant crazy confused or anything, it’s more like an underlying, fundamental kind of confused. i feel like perhaps i don’t really understand human nature at all and that my worldview is kind of……………………………………….. strange. not that i would want to have it any other way or to feel any other way, but… it feels almost sociopathic somehow.

anyway.

maybe that’s just the 7:00am rambling me speaking…

quote from nigel randell’s “the white headhunter.”

Funny book to be quoting from considering my last recent quotes have been from Franz Kafka, Vladimir Nabokov, and J.D. Salinger, but it is what it is. The White Headhunter is like an anthropological chronicle of a Spanish kid’s journey being shanghaied and then escaping to an island in the South Pacific full of natives who had never really seen a white man before. It was a gift from my brother for Christmas last year, and I’m just reading it now. Interesting, for sure. But anyway, this quote can be taken negatively or positively, depending on your viewpoint and your current place in life, probably, which also makes it that much more interesting. I took it to be pretty positive, generally, but I can see the depressing side of it. Shrug. It’s funny, though, right? Notions of absolute paradise and absolute hell are pretty much one and the same thing, no?

“Far from being pitched into a world of primitive chaos, Renton found himself living in a society bound by rules and rituals that governed the behaviour of every man, woman, and child. Without writing, memory had to be perfect, tradition exact and each growing child was taught the form and function of countless rituals, dozens of songs and the ancestral histories that bound the community together. No people were more exact in their observance of etiquette: your attitude to your mother-in-law or paternal uncle, how you should balance a spear in the presence of your friend, what prayers you should invoke before you went fishing, what ritual you should perform if you saw a white man’s ship out to sea, which bird or fish may be killed in which month.
 
“This was a one-track, one-faith world that worked for people who saw no necessity for investigation. They were too busy living. They did not ask ‘how?’ or ‘why?’ for those questions start when man realizes that he might beat nature. It was a society where there was little discontent and no free thought. They did not criticize each other as characters, as abstract personalities related to some vague ideal as to what they ‘should’ be. They had no illusions about human decency or freedom. They simply existed in an accepted, totally unchanging world. Even living persons was an ‘is’ and also a ‘will be’. So when they died they were still an ‘is’ not a ‘has been’.”

PS. Dude, it’s 5:00am, and I’m starving. DUDE?? It’s 5:00am? WHAT THE FUCK? My sleep schedule is more and more fucked by the day. UGH.